In the English dictionary, rebirth is defined as the process of being reincarnated or born again; the action of reappearing or starting to flourish or to increase after a decline; revival. When I think of baptism, I think of dying to my old self and shedding off my old ways. I think after six years of heavy inner struggle and battle, I'm finally ready to publicly declare my faith and the fact that I am His daughter. My identity is no longer found in my grades, future career and income, friendships, and relationships. All things, no matter how perfect they may seem at the moment, will change. God is forever the same in His constant and unwavering love, and I know all good things in my life was and is given by Him. Every good thing that comes out of my life is because of Him and FOR Him.
Whenever people say, "everything happens for a reason," I cannot help but think, "...because my God has a big plan for me and He has already written my life story." Only He knows all the little plans I had for myself. But everyday, He shows me something more - bigger and better. This entire semester, He's been shattering all the things on which I placed my identity to show me His ways: to seek Him first. Even worldly things that aren't "bad at all" become evil when I find my identity and worth in them because in reality, my worth is as His daughter. The more I lean on Him, the more I realize how sinful I was and am. I don't think I'll ever grasp the magnanimity of His love and grace, but I do know that it's exactly THAT love that has saved me and changed me. And everyday, I'm falling deeper in love with my Lord, my Savior, my Redeemer, my Lover, my Rock.
Baptism does not cause regeneration and it's not a one time thing. So everyday, I will aim to die to myself and take up my cross daily to follow Him. (Luke 9:23-24) There are so many things that I'm still struggling with and so many things I must work on. Baptism is just my first baby step.
|my beautiful family, all of whom are so fashionable :)|
|so happy! but so, so cold!|
|my friends make my heart soar.|
|half of my pledge sisters + pledge mom|
|happy baptism dinner!|
A couple of my favorite lyrics (Love Came Down and Set a Fire):
"Love came down and rescued me
Love came down and set me free
I am Yours, I am forever Yours
Mountain high or valley low
I sing out, remind my soul
That I am Yours, I am forever Yours."
"No place I'd rather be
No place I'd rather be
No place I'd rather be
Than here in Your love, here in Your love
Set a fire down in my soul
That I can't contain that I can't control
I want more of You, God
I want more of You, God."